I've no idea when was the last time I actually wrote something here, but as I was surfing the net earlier, I had a strong urge to get this blog activated and here I am , right now, writing once again. I have not been writing for the longest time. More especially after my resignation from NTV7. But it's all good, life's been good to me. Praise the Lord.
I've been thinking exceptionally much lately and one thing that crossed my mind was 'Crying'. I never had the habit to cry when I watch sad movies, be it in the cinema or at the comfort of my home. I would not cry for any hard times faced anywhere.. eg: work, out of work..etc? It is ALMOST impossible for me to even drop a tear now. At least not for any emotional-related issues.
I believe crying will not solve anything, nor will feeling bad and sorry for yourself change the situation. I've noticed how some people find pleasure indulging themselves in negative emotions, ( which I sometimes do too ). However, the wise me will drop a reminder that these 'depression-related' feelings will only slow me down. And most of the time,I'd choose to move on fast.
Now.. how funny it is that one of the struggles I'm facing is to release pent-up feelings. I do agree that shedding tears can be a huge and very healthy emotional release, particularly if one is experiencing deep pain, sadness, anger or stress. But to me, the question is... HOW DO I CRY?
I could not tear for anything except for family-related issues now. I could not cry even after giving myself hundred reasons to execute it. haha! Sometimes I do question myself, have I used up my tear limit 5 years ago? What happened back in half a decade ago? Stay tuned for my next entry ;)
I've been thinking exceptionally much lately and one thing that crossed my mind was 'Crying'. I never had the habit to cry when I watch sad movies, be it in the cinema or at the comfort of my home. I would not cry for any hard times faced anywhere.. eg: work, out of work..etc? It is ALMOST impossible for me to even drop a tear now. At least not for any emotional-related issues.
I believe crying will not solve anything, nor will feeling bad and sorry for yourself change the situation. I've noticed how some people find pleasure indulging themselves in negative emotions, ( which I sometimes do too ). However, the wise me will drop a reminder that these 'depression-related' feelings will only slow me down. And most of the time,I'd choose to move on fast.
Now.. how funny it is that one of the struggles I'm facing is to release pent-up feelings. I do agree that shedding tears can be a huge and very healthy emotional release, particularly if one is experiencing deep pain, sadness, anger or stress. But to me, the question is... HOW DO I CRY?
I could not tear for anything except for family-related issues now. I could not cry even after giving myself hundred reasons to execute it. haha! Sometimes I do question myself, have I used up my tear limit 5 years ago? What happened back in half a decade ago? Stay tuned for my next entry ;)
Love,
Ai Lee
